Am I the only one who doesn't like pretty boy and girl game?

Ive been playing mlbb (mobile legends bang bang) for 5 years. It was also my first moba 5v5 experience I've had. I was in love with it and I've spend hours playing and mastering the heroes, watched many tutorials and also watched streams. I'm also well aware of upcoming events, collaboration and changes in meta/buffs, nerfs. Having played it for that long (also I'm a competative player), it would have been great if I get to access early heroes, buffs and nerfs updates. Though, There are some YouTubers covering the topic but, Watching and actually playing the experience is quite different. I'll get to know the meta better, heroes better and overall improves experience.